Why I am scared of tomorrow Thursday

This Thursday we have our PRIZE GIVING, and I want an academic award to make my family proud, but that's probably NEVER. Actually, people say I'm really smart when I never gotten a academic. I'm like "what, I'm not even smart."  I know, It doesn't matter of  me being intelligent. It matters to me though, I have to be smart to be a youtuber/doctor. 

This is the end of me being scared.

E.g: I want a academic because I wanna make my family proud.